I don't know about you, but in this giant world I sometimes feel small, insignificant and forgotten. The days run together and I struggle with discontentment and boredom. It all feels old and mundane. The last few weeks have especially felt that way. I just feel asleep inside. I even switched sides of the bed with my husband to shake things up a little:)
I want to feel alive. I want a new fresh take on things. I want my life to matter and be more than just about me. Here's the deal though... no matter how I "feel" or what my mind is telling me...God is at work in my life. There are things that are hidden from me...there are times when He is silent. That doesn't mean that he is not working or that he doesn't have great things in store. I was touched by these words:
I believe in the sun, even when it is not shining.
I believe in love, even when I do not feel it.
I believe in God, even when He is silent. (Author unknown)
My pages are not finished yet. I can't wait to see how my story will unfold. That realization makes me feel alive and worthy and full of anticipation. If I've learned anything in this study...it was that I was born for a time such as this. There is pure joy in that knowledge.
Have a blessed day.
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How beautiful Becky!!!! I just LOVE it...and I switched sides with hubby in bed last night too because when I do that occasionally I sleep much better...I know not your point but that's just what I thought...beautiful words through and through though.
ReplyDeletethis is awesome and for everyone! We all struggle with the "antsies" It's so funny to hear you write this just as your dream is taking off! But remembering that God is at work in us even when we don't see it is so wonderful! Merry Merry Christmas my friend! You touch me! Beautiful post!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful! I learn so much from you, my friend!!! xoxo
ReplyDeleteIt is obvious that you wrote out of a full heart today sweet friend! Truly, there are many pages of our stories yet to be written...and God is actively at work within each line.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter and I just watched the movie "Esther" on Sunday. I had done Beth Moore's study last yr. Watching the movie now after having done the study stirred up so much within my soul.
Blessings to you!
Wonderful words, Becky, and so true!
ReplyDeleteSomeone mentioned this book on my blog yesterday too. I haven't read it.
ReplyDeleteBut I love this message that we are put here for such a time as this!
Oh sweetie... what a precious heart you have and what a sweet post. I have been doing this study too, and I LOVE IT.
ReplyDeleteAlso... on a lighter note, my man keeps asking me to switch sides of the bed too... I have never heard anyone else mention it, and it just happened that he brought it up last month. I am laughing so hard right now and yet another similarity, though a funny one!!
amen!! we don't know what God is up to behind the scenes but we do know that He is always working. He is using you in ways you may never know about. i am glad that you have been around for "such a time as this" in my life!
ReplyDeletei knew right away from the title- the story of esther has always been my absolute favorite!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post Becky! My heart needed to hear these words today...thank you:)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post. I started that study and never finished it because it was during the school year. Beth Moore studies and me do not mix during school:-) I am currently working on a piece with similar words. It is so important to remember the truths in the words...you were born for such a time as this!!! Just imagine!!!
ReplyDeleteJust love my daily dose of inspiration from you. :)
ReplyDeleteI needed to read this this morning. Thank you for posting:) I have been wanting to do that study for awhile now.
ReplyDeleteI am in need of doing a study. Do you just do it on your own or do you have a bible study group. Sometimes trying to get a group together is so hard, so I'm thinking I should just do it myself.
ReplyDeleteThanks for posting this and for being so willing to talk about your faith. You have a beautiful heart Becky!
This is beautiful! I love how you pour your heart out, and switching sides of the bed is pretty cute!
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely reminder, Becky. There are so many days where I feel like I'm just going through the motions...cleaning up spills, changing diapers, making meals and snacks, etc. And though I know in my heat that it's not meaningless, there are days when I long for thrilling excitement. It's so important to remind ourselves that we really are here for a reason...in this time, this place, and in this life.
ReplyDeleteI took a much-needed sabbatical from blogging and this was such a wonderful blog post to come back to. Thank you for spilling your heart, my friend!
Yes you were...we all have things we are to do in this life...mostly doing things that help others where in we find ourselves too and Jesus Christ. What a wonderful plan for happiness they came up with for us all. I believe we were there and voted for this great plan of happiness too and even shouted for joy that we could come to earth and live it! Love you! Come say hi :D
ReplyDeleteYou know, I go through the same kind of thing especially during this kind of sunless weather. That is when I begin to feel I need a shake-up and wake-up of new energy and some new adventures to look forward to. I've also realized during these kind of times that God is the only one who can fill this void. I would like to read this Beth Moore study about Esther. Sounds very encouraging.
ReplyDeleteI love this post. I think that feeling of 'waiting for more' is in all of us. I know for myself that when I feel that way I pray and ask God what I should be doing and He fills my heart with an action I can take to participate in the world around me. It usually comes in the form of giving to others and I think the reason for that is because God uses that feeling of waiting for something more to happen to remind me that it's not about ME, it's about Him. Thanks for sharing yourself! I really appreciate it.
ReplyDeleteHi Becky! beautiful post and you are right, your book has just begun there is so much for waiting for you. I used to feel antsy all of the time, wanting more, wanting change...but something happened and I have found contentment with the mundane...knowing each day holds the same routine, the same people I adore, the same house I have called mine, I have found peace in it...but perhaps it comes from feeling completly opposite for so long that i have come to cherish the everyday!
ReplyDeleteHappy Tuesday to you my dear....
p.s. thank you again for the cookbook...love love love it!
I so adore Beth Moore's heart and passion for God! Her study on Esther was amazing. I too, love the fact that we are here (now) for a certain purpose and reason. Nothing is random. What a blessing to have that assurance that we are born for such a time as this.
ReplyDeleteThank you for being a blessing, Becky!
Thanks for the encouragement! I don't know why it's so easy to forget (for me any way) that God does have a plan for me (each of us). Sometimes I feel like I need to be reminded like everyday! :)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post, I needed this tonight.
ReplyDeleteThanks for this girl! Sure is true for me too! Love this post and sure love your new paintings! You are a talented beautiful soul...
ReplyDeleteI would welcome some boring days! My days are so hectic I would love to be calm!
ReplyDeletei agree! we are here for a purpose! what that is i am not sure yet but i cant wait to find out! i look forward to reading about your journey!
ReplyDeleteLuved this post Becky! Esther is one of my favs in the Bible...such an inspiration! luvs, trina
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet post! I'm having a really rough week so far and I was really touched by your thoughts. It means a lot to be reminded that God is still working in our lives even when it feels like he is silent. Sometimes I ask God if he has forgotten about me, and I always feel like he is chuckling at my silliness. It is really easy to feel insignificant, but look at how many lives you touch just through your blog. You are important to the world and you make a difference in other's lives. Lately I've been praying for the grace to have more trust in His plan. I feel comforted to know that I'm not the only one with struggles. Thanks for posting this!!
ReplyDeleteOh! Those words by the unknown author are lines in the BarlowGirl song "I Believe in Love". Their sound is a little pop/rock-ish but their lyrics are really beautiful.
So I read todays post about your "winter blues" before I read this post. Sounds like a perfect study to be finishing as you head into the 'bluesy' times... for such a time is this! Even when God is silent - He is still ever present and doing a mighty work. I have a good friend that gets the 'winter blues' - it is a very real thing. I am doing Beth Moore's study on Daniel -her studies are life changing!
ReplyDeleteAnd I am sitting here laughing that just two nights ago my husband and I switched sides of the bed! No joke! It was really for no reason except 'just because'... so ironic!
~Christine
Yay! I just finished my Esther Bible study yesterday, too! It was such a wonderful time of discovery and growth, I could just burst! And I made a very good friend who has become so dear to me--we were each an answer to prayer to each other.
ReplyDeleteWe are starting Daniel in the winter, my second time through.